Satisfied?

Think about it.
Are you satisfied right now?
I mean, really satisfied right now?

Deep down. If you just sat
in silence.

Just sat and really thought about it. What would your answer be?

How do you really feel right now?

Maybe not satisfied.

Maybe anxious?
Restless?
Searching?
Worthless?
Hopeless?
Purposeless?

Or maybe joyful! Peaceful. Hopeful. You could definitly be feeling that too. I don’t always mean to sound like this down trodden, dramatic, pathetic person 🙂 In fact, I’m all about joy. I’m just writing from the place God is bringing me from.

So, no matter which of those feelings you’re experiencing, I’d encourage you to go even deeper.

Are you satisfied?
Not in the superficial things in your life – school, work, titles earned, goals achieved…
But in the things that cut to the core.

That make up your core?

Namely, who God has made you to be. Your identity.

Because if you’re not satisfied and content in who God has made you to be, then this keeps you from a whole level of freedom God intends for us as His kids.

That’s what it’s done to me. That whole dissatisfied… disgusted thing.

I guess I’ll just share what God has laid on my heart concerning this issue.
I struggle a lot with being satisfied and content with who God has made me to be. Whether it’s how He’s made me as a physical person or how he’s made my personality.

I don’t know why this is.

I think maybe one of the big reasons is that I’m a big people pleaser. I love people and love goofing off but also having deep meaningful conversations, but in all of that, I worry a lot… I mean, a lot a lot about what people think.

And it seems like it’s gotten worse as I’ve let that little lion of a beast live inside of me. Go figure huh. Lion cubs, like sin or fear or something, will eventually grow huge and overtake whatever they’re occupying. Kind of the same with the whole dissatisfied, disgusted thing in my life. I didn’t catch it early on so it kind of took my life over. And yeah. Not fun stuff.

I’ve struggled a lot with the Psalms 139:14 verse:
“I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”

I would get frustrated with God because I struggled to believe this was true. In our world, especially as women, it’s so easy to enter the “beauty competition” and when you’re not “skinny enough” or perfect enough, you feel completely worthless. I bought into that for so long. But I would ask God, “how am I made fearfully and wonderfully? I feel the farthest from that right now.”

I was never satisfied. Never satisfied with how hard I exercised or how hard I watched my “healthy” eating. It kind of turns into a disease.

This spread to how I viewed everything else in my life. I felt like I had no purpose – sure I could crank out the A+++ grades like no other, but that feels pretty meaningless. What good at anything was I?

And so, I’d find myself getting stuck in these downwards spiraling blackholes of fear and worthlessness. Where I’d just compare myself and feel down and get jealous and covet what other people had or looked like.
It felt really low. And sometimes I still go there.

But the reason I’m writing this is to say that there is hope.

Hope.

Like a cold blast of air that refreshes and rejuvinates you.

Hope that God can bring you to a place where you are confident and satsified in the beautiful person he has made you to be. Because He is satsified with you. Head over heels for you. Deeply in love with you.

And He wants you to be confident in your identity, because from this, he calls each of you to the specific purpose he has for you.

See, the whole dealio the devil trys to get us to believe is that the problem is us. That we are flawed. That if we could just get it right, all would be ok.

But the fact is, we can’t get it right. Before we were God’s kids, the problem was us. We were fallen. We couldn’t make it ok. But there is someone who can.

Jesus. If you ask Him to be your Savior and King, you are no longer bound to that curse of fear and brokeness. We are free and called to live our lives for Him. Not for ourselves.

So, when the devil says you’re the problem, say this back.

“Denied. I am a daughter/son of the True King. I AM NOT FLAWED. God has a purpose for me. That purpose is not to live for myself. It’s to show others this True Life-changing Love I’ve found. I’m free.”

First, we have to be satisfied in Jesus.
“Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks this water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:13-14

Second, Jesus wants us to be content with who He’s made us to be.

And remember to note this:

That God doesn’t want us to be satisfied just so we can enjoy our perfect little life and be good and feel good about ourselves.

No. He wants us to be satsified and content with who we are 1) because He made us and He calls it beautiful and 2) because He wants us to bodly and unashamedly step into the purpose He has for each one of us.

YOU have a purpose
Right now.

You can be content and satisfied in your identity. Ask God to help you with this. Ask Him to help you stop playing the comparison game. All it does is make you go on an endless search. But you are already found. Recieve that.

Who you are right now is the person God wants to use right now.

“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
Phil 4:11-13