Hope you’re all relaxing and just soaking in the beautiful summer day! Performance has been on my mind a lot so I though I’d just share my thoughts on it here…
God brought it to my attention that I base my joy and how I feel about myself on how I look in the mirror or how I feel I’ve performed. But my joy or my feelings about myself should NOT be based on how I perform for others or what they think about me or what I look like.
Easier said than done, right?
It’s interesting… I just got a Pinterest account because I wanted to tag wedding ideas for a friend of mine that’s getting married. So I went through and was making my different “boards.” I created my “dream wardrobe” board because I love cute outfits and often have to dream about them as a poor college student. 🙂 So I was going through, pinning different outfits, and noticed that if you look at every single one of the models, they are all rail skinny with tiny, perfectly toned legs, beautiful skin, and perfect hair. Perfect everything. I mean, yes, hahaha, it’s not like I’ve never seen models before, but this just opened my eyes. It’s like we don’t think anyone is beautiful unless they’re a particular shape.
I guess I just found that looking at these pictures prompted me even more to feel like I can never be satisfied with myself unless I look like this. I found myself focusing so much on the thought that, “Oh, if I could only look like that and have those things, I would be so happy and everyone would love me.. etc.” Just kind of wasting my time kind of “worshipping” a certain body image.
I’m not saying it’s bad to love fashion and to have fun wearing cute outfits, but I just think it’s so easy for us to get caught up in believing that this is our identity. It’s because it’s so tangible and immeadiate. But earthly beauty fades, and God says that our beauty comes inward, from our heart.
What it comes down to is that our body image or our hobbies like running or our school, job, etc. don’t define us.
If you feel like you’re never enough that’s because you’re looking to the wrong audience. Look to you Father. He says you ARE enough.
I love this devo from Jesus Calling.
“I want you to experience the riches of your salvation: the Joy of being loved constantly and perfectly. You make a practice of judging yourself, based on how you look or behave or feel. If you like what you see in the mirror, you feel a bit more worthy of my Love. When things are going smoothly and your performance seems adequate, you find it easier to believe you are my beloved child. When you feel discouraged, you tend to look inward so you can correct whatever is wrong.
Instead of trying to “fix” yourself, fix your gaze on Me, the Lover of your soul. Rather than using your energy to judge yourself, redirect it to praising Me. Remember that I see you clothed in My righteousness, radiant in My perfect Love.”
-Jesus Calling, July 13
You are loved. You are beautiful. Not because of your performance but because of WHO you are.