Sometimes it feels like I’m stuck in a tornado. So many things whirling around me. My voice is drowned out by everything.. all the other voices that say that I need to be different… or that I need to change how I look… or that I’m never good enough… that I’m worthless. And I’m shouting, “No! That’s not me! That’s not who I am. I am clothed in Christ! I am stronger than this. I’m not defined by these things. I am not worthless.” I try to be strong. To keep fighting. To keep proclaiming Truth. But as the storm rages on, it gets harder and harder. I don’t feel like I can muster the strength to put up my shield anymore and fight. In fact, I’m so confused. What if those things are true? I lower my shield. I don’t feel like fighting anymore. Is it worth fighting? What am I fighting for?
I just feel completely engulfed.
I want to be rescued. I want for those strong hands to reach down and pull me out. To pull me out of this pit. I’m so sick of feeling this way. It’s like I think I know the Truth in my head… that I’m not defined by what the world thinks. That God has so much more for me. That I need to fix my eyes on Him. But there’s this huge disconnect between my head and my heart. I don’t actually believe these things most of the time. It’s easy to believe it when the going is easy… but when it gets tough… then I just start listening to the other voices. But I want to BELIEVE these things.
Women, I think there is an attack on our worth. Lately, I’ve just been feeling so worthless. And a few friends have been telling me how they feel the same. Well, it’s all a lie!! Let’s expose these lies!!! WE ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE!
It seems like there’s always this nagging voice whispering in my ear. Telling me I could do better or I’d finally be worth it if x, y or z.
These are some of the things I struggle with:
I would have more worth if…
-I was a smaller clothing size
-If I exercised more
-If I always looked “cute”
-If I consistently had my quiet time everyday.. for a certain length of time… and finished feeling inspired and ready to change the world
-If I spent more time with my family
-If I was more grateful
-If I was prettier
-If I always got perfect grades
-If I had more friends
I don’t know what you struggle with but I’m sure everyone has things that they wish they could change or that they feel defines their worth.
But why do we let physical or temporary things define our worth? Why, when I wake up, do I find myself rushing to the mirror to see how I’m going to feel about myself for the day? The mirror shouldn’t determine my joy or worth. My worth comes from my Creator, my Daddy. He says I’m worth it all. In fact, that I’m worthy. Not because of anything I’ve done, but because of his mercy and love for us. “It does not, therefore, depend on man’s desire or effort, but on God’s mercy.” Romans 9:16
I know. You’ve heard this before. But do we really believe it? Is it enough? This is what’s hit me hard. Is it enough for my worth to be determined from my King? Or do I want the approval of man, the approval of the world? There’s a verse in Psalms that says this: “Turn my heart toward your statues, and not towards selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things.” Psalms 119:36-37. I’ve been praying that God would turn my eyes from worthless things… I don’t want to build my castle on the sand and have it swept away. I want to buil on the rock.
It’s amazing that no matter what I look like or how I feel, my Father loves me unconditionally. He doesn’t have a “worth measuring stick” where he pulls it out every morning and measures my worth on a scale of 1 to 10. By my standards, wow, I feel like I’d score low a lot of the time. But this is not what He thinks. He says I’m always a 10. Wow. Think about that. No matter how we feel, He says we’re worth it all.
I just want to encourage you that you’re worth is not defined by anything other than what Jesus says about you. He calls you his BEAUTIFUL daughter who is ENOUGH. In Him there is no striving. You don’t have to be “perfect”…. whatever that is. 🙂 Just be you.
YOU are enough.
YOU are worth it.
As Mike Donehey from Tenth Ave North says, “Live Loved.” For you are SO loved. The King of the Universe is in love with YOU.
Live loved. Think about this for a minute.
When we begin to love ourselves and see ourselves in a new light, then we can better love our Maker and those around us.
Here’s a hug from me. You are worth so much more than you think. Don’t believe the lies of the enemy. Jump into your Daddy’s arms and let Him hold you and realign your gaze with his. It’s worth it.
You are worth it. ❤
“My sould finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Psalms 62:1-2